Not Just Dust
I had been praying for revelation. Why had so many others had these huge encounters with God and I was still feeling stuck, motionless, at an impasse with my relationship with God? Was I not hungry enough? Was I not pure in heart? All of these questions began a cycle of doubt.
I used to think that when that day came, it would come as me falling on my face, being struck backwards or even yelling at the top of my lungs all these truths about my identity in Christ. Now those are all good and wonderful things, the Lord has different relationship with each of us so setting Him up in my expectations based on others wasn’t the best way to go about waiting on the Lord. Little did I know that one of my most powerful moments with God would come by just simply going out on a walk with him.
At the Training Centre there are so many places to go be alone with God, but for me He usually calls me away. Word to the wise, always wear your high-vis vest and remember the cars are on the opposite side of the road! This walk was different, it was at night, windy and filled with clouds, but still the Lord called me out of bed and to walk with Him. I could barely see anything, I was cold and would have much rather been called to having alone time with Him in the lounge by the fire – but a walk is what He wanted.
I stumbled along the roadside and felt nothing – Lord what did you want to talk about? Still nothing. As the walk continued the sky opened up and the vastness of the star filled night came into view. In the beginning God created…He made the world out of nothing. He created space and filled it. He formed man from dust. What do we think of dust? It is nothing, stuff we just sweep up and throw away, but I was created from nothing.
There is a term in Latin, Ex Nihilo: Creation of something from nothing. He knit me in my mothers womb, formed me in the secret place and chose me, just as He chose to make Adam from the dust of the earth.
He took all my nothingness and continues to make it into a whole of something.
For as beautiful and detailed are the stars, I am more intricate. For as grand as the mountains are, I am more beautiful. I am worthy. I am His. I am His beautiful creation.